Over the past several years, I’ve been completely out of some feeling of, something like kinda affection; I think I am definitely the type of person whom would like to decorate the cabinet, belong to myself, so cozy, so level-headed. Yes, I’ve done. And no any more extra expectation to plead for God can award me. I know it exactly, that doesn’t mean isolate outer, but stand aloof from the worldly affairs, for all I care. Put another way, something like exodus, exile myself willingly. Protect well not being spotted.
Can’t get the ability to discern what are right and what not, I am still contributing with all I have. I’d like to convince myself in existence of truth, beauty and love, in raison d’etre I trust.purely.
Why?
At the very beginning, you find one creek, so beautiful, you overhear one story, so touching, and you run into a pet, so adorable, you find a people, so dependable, you want to get the most out of these series. So you walk down to the aisle to find out the headstream of the creek, you got the sewage finally, you are disappointed. You inquiry about the master of the story then you found out they totally compiled the fictitious to attract your eyes, you are dismayed. You plan to pick the pet up and cuddle to you house, however the host come and recall it, it is despairing. You want to devote you to marriage the people you felt dependable, nevertheless, he/she betray you with a dears know deceit. Eventually, you are really exhausted.
So, what should you do then? Do you want to be flagged? No, you are still hungry for love and to be loved no matter how many times you are deceived. All of the dissimilarity compare to before that you are gingerly with great care, as you know protect yourself should be esteemed as the top priority, you become clever since after.
You know it is impossible for something you desire with all the traits of impeccability, so you prefer to pretend all of them are perfect, as the saying goes, living is easy when closed your eyes. Is that correct, ok just pretend it never will let you down.
Anyway, life shouldn’t be that complicated.
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